Can’t sleep… What’s new? Ugh why do my deepest thoughts always happen when I really need to go to sleep?

With that certain day approaching…all I can think about is what could have been..I had it somewhat planned out in my head. But now it’s not gonna happen. I’ll still try to make the most of that day but still sad about the whole thing

Most importantly I’m just mad at myself for being stupid..for being patient and waiting..I guess my timing wasn’t right

I always tell myself..everything happens for a reason, but for this situation I’m still figuring out why?

just FML right now. my weak and vulnerable heart cannot take all of this pain.

I am literally in the same position as I was 2 years ago….when will I ever learn? I give up on love..I guess it’s not meant for me

all I can say is that I am not as excited about my birthday as I was 2-3 months ago…

I figured out what I really want to do..career-wise.
Ultimately, I want to be a radiology assistant.

I gave up on the idea of becoming a radiologist or a neurologist, not because I want to take an easier route (it may seem that way), but mostly because of what I will get to work with.

I initially got interested in radiology when I was in my high school psychology class and we saw images of brain scans and I just think it’s so cool how these machines can detect neural activity, especially when feeling certain strong emotions and then you’ll know what part of the brain is most activated.  

The doctor route was always encouraged by my parents and so I thought being a radiologist is what I should do or a neurologist with my fascination with the nervous system and all lol

However, I think my passion is to actually to work with the machines to obtain these images and analyze them.  And as a radiology assistant, I’ll get to do both.  RA is not a big field currently, so hopefully by the time I’m ready to get certified as an RA, there will be more job prospects.  But if not, I’ll still be happy as being just a radiology tech.

There are other reasons, but that’s the gist of it.

Whoa!! this hotel room looks pretty cool! Enjoy nature, while staying cozy at night 

The Tree Hotel (http://www.treehotel.se/?pg=mirrorcube) has some other very unique hotels out in the woods

trying to not let it bother me…but it is upsetting/heartbreaking…I seriously don’t know how to handle this situation =/

need to do something to distract my mind from all this…

Yay! I am finally done with the project that I’ve been doing during  winter break, (took a break during school), and this summer.  The summer after freshman year, I started making a scrapbook of all the pictures we took during the school year and hoping to continue making it for all 4 years, BUT I got lazy haha AND ink costs a lot and there were way too many pictures to cut up by hand.  So this past winter break I decided to go digital with the scrapbook! I told you guys I would make one, but never went into the details since I didn’t know how I wanted to publish it online until recently when I found this program: JAlbum.  It’s cool, but it costs money every month to use it, so right now I’m on their 30-day free trial thing.  I made an account today and posted the album below! (Click on the picture)

Since it’s a free trial, the album will be up for a month =[ and there are ads, so sorry about that!! But I also made a flickr account and uploaded all the pictures on there, so you can look at it whenever you want!! :D 

http://www.flickr.com/photos/jellybellyk/collections/72157630041529776/

Let me know if you can’t see the pictures.  Hope you guys like it! 

UP Collage